Turn the Lights On

Have you created your own kingdom?  Have you painted the canvas of yourself that you want others to see?  Carefully crafted in efforts to convince and show people that you are put-together, competent, capable, strong, able, dependable, clear-headed, desired, respectable...etc. Fill in the blanks.  What if it crumbles? And they see? All of it. Would it be the ruin of you? Or Would you finally be set free? "Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil: for thine is the kingdom, and the power and the glory, for ever. Amen."    Matthew 6:9-13

“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.” ―  Rainer Maria Rilke   "You see this right here? This is where your visual field is reaching to and you need to be at least to here to drive legally in this state." The Dr.'s eyebrows were furrowed with her mask covering her mouth and nose as she looked up at me from the chart she was pointing at. The now familiar crease in-between her eyebrows seeming to soften just a bit. "But you probably saw this coming." "Actually, no. I didn't see this coming. This is a surprise." I respond. "I've known what my visual fi